to him...his tinking is tt...if a girl hit the guy...the guy can hit the girl oso...mayb our tinking is different...he juz dun get it...how many times must i tell him...is OVER between us..but he juz dun seem to understand...he tot i was juz playing with him...coz i always break and patch with him..but tis time..is different...u lay ur hand on me...no turning back...i see no future in us althought i keep telling myself u will change but nth much...in other words..u are nth...u dun haf anyting...
y cant u let me go..y wan to torture me non stop...i really had enuff already..


heart already broken into millions pieces....i nid my wall asap...scars cannot nv heal...they will also been with me...the scars on my hands...the scars in my heart...will always be there....no matter what u do...

finally have the time to blog liao...at this moment...my heart has already been broken into million pieces...i try finding the pieces to stick back my heart...but...i juz cant find them...they are too small to been seen....my fairy tale has finally come to an end...there was no happy ending..only a very bad ending..
i juz feel lk dying...the way u treated me...i really duno what to do...i already sae..once u hit me..tt is the end of the r/s...u didnt take my warning seriously...u hit me...hands all cover with bruise...i didnt expect u to be a devil...i tot u always love and care for me..but i was wrong..when u lose ur temper...u dun rmb who am i...ur 1st slap...torn me apart..my world came crushing dw...heart broken into million of pieces...ur 2nd slap came...i totally broke dw...the hatred i had in u...when ur hand raise up for the 3rd time...i look at u when my eyes...i noe u can see hatred and anger in my eyes...u stop...i didnt noe u would be so violent towards me...u ask if my hand and face hurt...yes it hurts...but what is hurting more is my heart...in the end..tis is what i got from u....u really broke my heart tis time round...and i hate u for doing tis...there is no way i can forgif u...i cannot bring myself u gif u another chance and forgive u...i dun haf the strenght...u sae i force u to hit me...but if u listen to me and return me mybag..all things wont happened at all....we wont even break....i force u...
sometings are coming back to me...i dun wan tis habit...but i felt by doing tis...i felt more happy...dun blame me...i juz wan to find a way to ease my pain and hurt...and tis is the only way...i juz dun wish to go back to depression...my heart hurts every moment...i hate it...controlling my tears in office is even more worse...how long must i take to heal???
how do i let go tis r/s....i wish i could end everyting...my heart is already dead...im left with a empty shell...i take a brave step out of my shell to love him whole heartedly...in the end..i haf to go back to my shell again..and slowly...i will once again build a wall in my heart...to prevent myself from getting hurt..to prevent ppl from hurting my heart...i need to build tis wall asap...this wall will protect me...i noe is a matter of time i will heal...deep inside...i dun tink i can heal inside..an empty shell inside...a lonely soul inside....
i juz wan to cry and scream..it killing me inside every moment...

i wish i could suddenly lose all my memories of u and me together or beta is to let a car knock me dw and wake up with no memories...

i juz wan to let go every tings....im feeling very terrible inside!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!