hmm...long time nv blog le....been rather bz lor...nth muxch had happened...but saw a bloodly sceen tyd...some one jumped or fall dw onto the mrt track...at clementi...omg...cant u imagine...y ppl dun cherish their life...i met death once and realise if i die...many ppl will be sad....my frens and family do care for me...juz tt i didnt realised it..stupid me...haha
well....hopefully i can go oversea...im keeping my finger cross....
11:03 AM
Thursday, October 26, 2006
hmmm...thursday le wor....mon and tue..been going out...monday went over to cookie's hse...haha...my two babies...soso cute... wed went to Zoo...had a lot of fun wif sam lor...wishing Ban was wif us..so the 3 of us can have alot alot alot of fun.... been rather not myself tis few days or weeks...tings happened here and there n i duno how to face tt person...i let him down....hopefully we can make it throu asap....
9:35 PM
Sunday, October 22, 2006
hmm....is sun le...lol...holiday so fast...thu work OT....for the zoo tingy...sian..im going to the zoo next wed wif my company ppl...lol...wa kao...and im lk partner wif a group of ppl i do not noe...sian.... Friday half day...but end up working until bt 1pm...becoz of the zoo tingy again...argh...had family dinner at ntie at yun nan yuan there...dage struck 1st prize so we went to eat..he gave me $100...haha...later went The Chevrons there to drink lor..haha
Sat...not tt hazy...haha...gd gd...went out wif dear dear...nth much lor..sian...
sun..going tuition later..boring and meeting dear later..ahah...
so i start work next thu...ENJOY...haha..
1:46 AM
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
hmm..it is wednesday le..time passes soso fast...well..monday nite went over to dear's hse...hmm..his room is much more neater den beta..haha..i lk it alot alot...
tues stay at home..went to 380 to eat lor...very nice...hazy hazy...dear having his duty.... watch the Ch U 'Say I Do'...damn touch lor..haha..ask boy when is my turn...he sae soon soon..haha
Today nth much...Mr Hamdan came down and tok to us...finally catch up wif WZ...went lunch wif him...juz now celebrate some tech. birthday..juz felt out of place lor...strange....haha later gng for tutition le...
Fri halfday...sat...sun...mon HP holiday...Tue Public holiday...haha...start work on Wed...hoho..cant wait for the long weekend holiday to be here soon...
2:00 PM
Monday, October 16, 2006
hmmm....alot alot to update...been rather very hazy this few days...throat very very uncomfortable.. well friday started off as a good day..but had a big disagreement wif him..he angry..i angry dun wan to tok...he cannot stand it..he was very rough and fierce towards me...i was scared...he took away my wallet..refuse to return me and he walk out of his own hse leaving me alone there...so i went off normally and WALK HOME....yes..i walk from Bukit Panjang to Clementi...a long long 2 hours walk...damn tired wif so many mosquito bites...he was worry...he went ard looking for me..i lazy to write le..haha
Sat went up to Cookie's hse..she is sick...supposed to meet Ms Lee but she cancel it...so stay at cookie's hse until bt 8+....he was having duty...
Sunday went for tuition den went to Sam's 21st BD....Went bowling wif jie, boy and grace...hahaha...had great fun....den went KTV..damn cheap lor there...sing until 12am den home sweet home...
the Chervons Chalet was nice...planning to book the chalet there for Xmas...mayb can ask his frens to come over..sure damn fun de...haha..hopeful i can book it..pls let there be space...
MONDAY....i was rite...sam didnt come to work..hehe...sick...i oso la..throat itchy...sianz...wat a boring day...MONDAY BLUES....
9:00 AM
Thursday, October 12, 2006
hahaha....it is thursday...tml is FRIDAY...YES!!!!!....the weekend is here...haha...but sad lei..dear is having duty on sat...den sun is Sam's BD....so fsat..wonder when will it be my 21st den... nvm...mayb can go up to cookie's hse to play wif her..hehe..i miss her alot alot ....ever so cute... nth much had happened lei...so juz blogging rubbish and signing off...haha..tata...
2:26 PM
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
hmmm...is Tuesday le..soso fast..time really pass soso fast lor...juz felt tt time is not enuff for me...i really need some SLP....Bz bzbzbzbzbz..work work work....im so freakin bz today...argh... let me update...
on friday..was damn hazy lor...sian...went to play lantern and we had alot alot of fun..but..the bad ting was...me and boy was some yum yum food for those damn mosquitoes....sickening...
on sat went out wif mama, papa and boy to Marine Square to eat Xin Wang....later after that go to Clarissa's hse...my cookie baby is sick...having some flu and cough...my poor little baby...cayden is getting bigger and soso cute..she nw know how to walk and talk le..so fast... had great fun wif Cookie...i miss her soso much...enjoy playing wif her alot alot...after that went to Dear's hse...fall aslp there....haha...went i wake up..the haze got worse...eeee....PSI was lk 140...omg...i hate haze....
On sun..had tuition...was angry wif my student...luckily he not my son..cannot imagine...went out wif Dear...1st went over to my aunt's place...dun lk to go there at all..soso siowent to eat swensens then watch movie...haha..went to watch Rob-b-hood...the baby is soso cute...very funny and sad lor...worth the $$ to watch...not lk Stay Alive...Argh....angry...
On mon...nth much..went back to office..tot of buying a small plant to place it at my desk...hehe.. work work work... i plan le..i intend to try out hospitality and tourism line be4 going to study tt...my target...1 yr working..if i really lk..den i enroll for my Ba(Hons)....
10:30 AM
Friday, October 06, 2006
Guess wat...is FRIDAY...haha...finally...the weekend is here..my long awaited...cant do much tings nw as one of the tech. is using my pc..so nth beta to do nw... later at nite gng to play lantern...yeah...today is lantern festival...yum yum..he is gng to swensens to buy me ice cream mooncake to eat...hmm..im getting fatter and fatter each day...must tink of a way to slim down le wor...hehe..my goal..to wear nice nice clothes...hoho.. been quite bz tis way..gng around chasing for quotations and outstanding invoices...boring... next week more bz..meeting Ms Lee, Sam's birthday...Meeting up wif Clarissa...alot alot of tings..i miss my cookie and cayden...so long nv see them le... Tml he is bringing me, mama and papa to go Marine Square to eat Xin Wang...hehe...toking about sliming down... -_-" Wonder if i can go and study Uni...not enuff $$ lei..sian...tink go work 1st den save up den enrol lor..no choice..still got the urge to go overseas to do my degree or Bacholer...is tt how u spell it??... or go to EASB to do my BA(Hons) international Hospitality Management....sian hor.....argh.... if only hospitality and tourism Dip came early into NP...i wouldn't go do Logistics liao...TP too far away from me le la...sian 1/2.... actually, now sae also too late le...
NW ppl...do wat u tink is gd for u..i regret nw but no time to cry over spilled milk...choose a course tt u love..pursue ur dreams....do wat u like...
I'm living my life as it is...stop telling me im having depression...I'M FINE~~~~~
10:07 AM
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
It is Wednesday...time passes very fast...2 more days to weekend le...I'm so tired...from all the working and entertaining...forcing a fake smile on my face when i mit some ppl tt i dun lk..wat is life dude???.... Sometimes trying to open my mouth and talk is hard...how do i speak up when i cant find the courage...mayb it is time i shd face myself..fight all tis...life is in a big mess..family in a big mess....does my face show im happy and im fortunate to have a wonderful family??....i nv had a wonderful family...from young...i made one fren...my fren is call CANE....no matter how much i do...correct or wrong...im always beaten up by my mum...i rmb the hatred i had towards her was big...i would cry lk hell whenever she come to fetch me from my godparents' hse...holding on to the door lk it was my life...nv wanted to go back to the home called hell...i wanted to run away...far from her...to the end of the world..so noone could find me...life came crashing down when i went into secondary sch...tt's was 4 yrs back...sec 3...my life came totally down...i wish i could die...no one understand the pain...no did... but without tis...i wont be wat i am nw...a totally different me...but i took along someting...depression...An illness that nv wanted to leave me...An illness i tot i had already recovered long ago...
WHEN WILL I EVER STEP OUT OF THE SHELL AND REACH OUT???..TELLING MYSELF..IT'S OK...
Sam sae I'm too honest...easy to let ppl bully...too trustful..ppl sae wat i believe wat...too innocent...wat's is wrong wif me?????....hu can answer ME~~~~~
4:04 PM
Monday, October 02, 2006
Hmm...quite long nv blog liao...alot of tings happened...today Sam nv come..so im lk alone here...soso sian.. had a fight wif him last fri...den it became bigger n bigger tt we almost break again..i slap him...omg..y didnt he moved away...i didnt mean it..i really did mean it..he was irritating and annoying me..pushing me to my very limits...i was damn angry and sad...bought mooncakes for his mother and clothes for his niece..he refused tp pick up my call and i had to call his hse..forced me to...sickening...argh...angry.. had a huge fight downstair his hse and i walked away to take bus...juz rite the bus came..in the bus realised i didnt eat my dinner at all felt hungry..and the story goes on..patch lor..haha.. sunday went for tuition...den went ot walk walk wif him...watch stay alive...very disappointed...haha..tot it would be nice..but is the sound systems tt is scary..not the movie..went to his hse for dinner den went home..told him to sit one round go back as it was the last bus le..told him not to worry..reach hm will call him...went i walk to my hse carpark...realise my hp is wif him..haha die..was tining tt hmm..ask him early morning pass to my mama...den i saw someone very familiar...it was him..he went down the bus after my stop which is quite far...he run over..sae he worry...dun wan me to go hm my self..told him my hp is wif him...haha..had a good luff over it..
sian sian sian sian sian...
Life is short...enjoy it while you still can....understand????
