Im having PMS and it sux lk hell.....losing temper at ppl..easily irritated by ppl and want to cry..wat is gng on with me...i hate it i hate it i hate it...it seems to get worse and worse...
this whole week..been losing my temper at him...i hate it...and he juz bear with it all the while...make me feel soso bad...

wat exactly is marriage??? just a piece of paper??...my mum's marriage failed...my jie's marriage oso failed...will mine oso failed...wat is wrong with our love life???...are we cursed..forever a loser in love...well...to me..im a failure in every part of my life...i hate it...
i hate everyting in this world...im juz a bloody loser... go on and tell me wat a wondeful life i have and fortune to have tings tt i wan...but hey..i earn them myself...im so broke and im lk working my ass off...i wan to be wif my ah gong & ah ma...in heaven where everyting is care free...
wish i have the courage to stand in front of the car and let them bang me to death..or i lost all my memories??....i really wan to lose all my memories and restart my life again. my life sux really bad..i really wan to restart everytings with new memories...all my sad and painful past and memories all completely erase from my mind and brain...restart with fresh memories...mb one day i shd pluck up my courage and stand in front of a road and let them bang me...losing my memories...how i wish...

i wish i wish.....
-to lose all sad, painful and hurt past and memories....
- i didnt noe him...so he will not be sad....
- i have a new life
- i have more frens
- to open up myself


all these are juz stupid wishes....

I HATE MYSELF FOR CAUSING SO MUCH MISERY, UNHAPPINESS AND HURT TO PPL AROUND ME...IM HATE IT..IM SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

is friday!!!! yeah!!!.....im freaking tired...ytd went yoga wif eve, almost fainted inside...my god...my back hurts lk hell....i totally fully banned HOT YOGA...no more hot yoga...nth much to blog lei...

sian sian sian sian sian!!!!!!

sian ar...im sitting in front of the computer doing nth...i have clear my shipments and i cant close files due to agent not giving me back $$...hate to chase CN and DN from them...DN they give super fast..CN...kao..chase them lk siao...
i cant find anyting to do...argh!!!!

what I'm wishing for...
- more money
- to study again
- more clothes
- to slim down
- a ring from Him
- car license
- good health for everyone
- to be happy

dream dream dream....i need to slim dw!!!!!! im eating lk no body business....argh!!!!!

monday again...so sian...well long time nv update again...really had fun wif boy in BKK...hehe..but last day was the worst day i had...i kana stomach flu...so freaky painful that i wish i could jus die that...went to see 24hrs doctor wif boy and he took care of me for the rest of the day...
i wan to go back BKK again...planning next yr go again..tis time, wif boy, sam and ban..any one else care to join???? haha...all are welcome...

work work work...been into alot of troubles lately...i hate work...y cant i just stay at hm and be a tai tai..hoho...lk tt boy will kill me...sian
well, seems lk our future are being planned out by us slowly le...getting a hse is the worst ting..it really involve alot alot alot of $$$$$...his mum is also chasing us to get marry which is kind of stress...dun lk tt lei...but i really lk to have little xians running away the hse...greeting boy when he comes hm from work...haha...im day dreaming again...okok


going hm nw.bye~~~