this is what im facing currently...im just so scare tt he has planned nth for V.day..i mean many people might find tt there is no big deal wat..but can you imagine...i have been wif him for 3 years already but..he has nv once bother to make plans for special days or wat...no surprises for me to look forward to...everyting was me...i plan everyting...surprise him...wat am i?? A boyfriend? he?? a Girlfriend...why do i keep finding myself planning everything...where he juz sit back and relax himself..enjoying wat i haf planned for him...mb i shd just listen to jie..dun plan anyting...jus sit back and wait...if he cant bother...y shd i bother.... i shall not planned any more things for CNY too...FUCK
**** NEGLECTED ****
i felt so neglected by him esp this week due to many tings happening..haiz...he jus dun sense im upset...how shd i bring the message across to him???...y he cant understand...haiz... and whats more..we are only meeting on fri nite and sunday..haiz..
**** BUSY ****
i have been very bz this whole week..sat morning will be meeting ban for breakfast den we go develop photos together...at nite is my family dinner...dear is oso having dinner...so wont be meeting each other... den sunday morning i will be going to dye my hair (still tinking wat colour shd i try)...den at 4pm..have to rush to marina sq to do my mani & pedi....after which..will rush over to mama there...bz bz bz bz bz
**** CONFUSED ****
im so confused...i duno to leave or to stay...ppl are leaving one by one...it struck me...i need more $$..will they increase my pay??...been tinking tinking tinking...but i dun lk sitting in a office doing the same ting everyday..i wan to do sometings more challenging..someting which require me to tink...haven been using my brain so much...hope it wont die on me soon...
