is sunday but im still feeling so miserable and upset...he sae i changed...but hu has really changed?...if i did change...my feelings towards him has nv been changed...i nv regret all the tings i haf given up and done for him...wat disappointed me was his attitude towards tis whole issue...i guess he must be blaming me nw for all it has happened...i do not wish to blame anyone..i accept it...i accept all the fault...ytd..i took almost 3-4 hrs bus rides...i keep tinking bt us..tears keep coming dw...wat exactly have i done wrongly to deserve his treatment nw?...i will be meeting him for dinner for the last time and after tt...i decided to let go...i wonder if i can do it...letting go is always so hard....nobody is to be blame...i took it the hard way...past is already past...but y do i still continue to live in the past...everyone is rite..im too native...tinking tt as long as we love each other...we can overcome everytings...but is our character and selfish acts tt have caused so many unhappiness...we have break and patch back so many times..shouldnt we cherish tis r/s even more after wat we have gone thru...

rmb the 1st time i met him...it was simple..i tot it was fate tt brought out together...of so many sporeans..he choose to wrongly msg me...all the 1st times we done together...tinking back..it does bring tears to my eyes...but how many times can a r/s restart??...even if we restart..there will be scars...everytime im learning to heal and accept him again...tings happened...mb im not the one for him...everyting tt i done for him...means nth to him???...tt how he sae me..watever he do..i wont feel anyting...

tis chapter must close no matter wat...i wish i wont be soft hearted when i see him later...i wish i could walk away from him without showing any expression or feelings on my face...i wonder if i could do it??...
i must be strong..ppl will tend to sae..aiya...quarrel again..will patch back de la..yes..we patch back..but each time we patch back...the feeling fade alittle..the hurt adds in a little...is lk a merry go roll..everyone ask me to break...but i really cant let go...

my hopes, dreams and future of us are dashed...im left with nth...im all alone..i will learn to be strong and walk my own ways...u left me with nth...is time to let go...