blogging again before i go home..jie stunned me wif all the marriage tingys..and i call xian up...he sounded so sad after i told him all the tings and wat happened...im sorry...i didnt mean it...but the thoughts all suddenly flow in...im scared...scared of marrying the wrong guy...i do not wish to suffer. will he be able to support the family..with the housing, stacks of bills...i noe..we should face it together..but i had enuff of the suffering im facing nw..i saving lk shit and he is spending lk shit...kao..is in and already out...haiz...i nv stop or interfer with him buying 4Ds or Toto...i mean..he lks...even if im angry or wat...i kept quiet..coz i dun wan to create another fight...haiz...
wat if i marry the wrong guy??...haiz...
wat exactly is marriage all about???....why does this question always appear in my mind...simply hateful bt it...i need advice from ppl...im scared and worry for our future..but he is...happy go lucky...i guess..i will be the one worrying all my life..haiz...y cant i be more lk him..happy go lucky and stop worrying for once...but guys will always be guys...they need girls to worry for them...anyone agree wif him??..

concerts concerts concerts...i wan to go liang jin ru and jay chou concert...but all so ex..and bloody jay chou's tickets are selling lk mad...save up save up for my driving and bangkok trip...
once again...any one else wan to join our BKK trip??..the more the merrier...hehehe...

it is 5.32pm now...1/2 hr more to go...i wan to go mama hse quick coz boy will be there..i wan to hug and smell boy...i love you...hehehe

**** im praying hard that i have not fallen for the wrong guy******