well...almost a week has past already...life still not tt prefect for me ba....i still feel heart pain and alot of hurt...had a fighting over the sms....wat he sae me has really really hurt me so much...all i can do was break dw and cry....nth i could back..watever i sae him..he gave me back double blow...hurt hurt hurt is wat im feeling nw...i wish i could be happy..but im juz lying to every single ppl on this earth...they see me luffing and cheerful..cracking jokes with them...im sad..so sad inside...everyting seem to be gng against me..y must i suffer so much????....

he sae watever he do...i will feel nth...all these yrs...all the hurt and pain...tears and concern and worry towards him are all fake...i nv knew he could suspect my feelings towards him...he nv trust me....

i guess...this is where our r/s will end up...

**** heart broken and despressed ******