well....guess i will be blogging regularly cause i totally dont how to express my feelings out to ppl...found someting ytd...was gng throu my disc and i found some photos of us and a ppt...i rmb i did the ppt for him...i gave it to him...guess my heart hurt so much i didnt noe wat to do...i wrote him a 3 page long letter stating my feelings and problem...i wonder wat he tinks...mayb he is very happy cause there is no gf ard and he can do watever he want..maybe he is not sad at all..he juz live his live happily without me...wat if he is not sad??? wat am i to him???...
just a puppet...im really lost...i lost my direction in life...i try to make myself bz...doing alot of stuff...but deep down im lonely...so lonely...i dun wish to go out...coz going out means i have to see couple..but staying at home makes me ttm...i wan to make this 2mths so packed i dun have time to tink bt him...but i always tink bt him...i noe he is managing well..cause there was hardly any sms from him...i guess he is fine...im not...

i wish i wish i wish.....how long must i wish???....