Im having PMS and it sux lk hell.....losing temper at ppl..easily irritated by ppl and want to cry..wat is gng on with me...i hate it i hate it i hate it...it seems to get worse and worse...
this whole week..been losing my temper at him...i hate it...and he juz bear with it all the while...make me feel soso bad...

wat exactly is marriage??? just a piece of paper??...my mum's marriage failed...my jie's marriage oso failed...will mine oso failed...wat is wrong with our love life???...are we cursed..forever a loser in love...well...to me..im a failure in every part of my life...i hate it...
i hate everyting in this world...im juz a bloody loser... go on and tell me wat a wondeful life i have and fortune to have tings tt i wan...but hey..i earn them myself...im so broke and im lk working my ass off...i wan to be wif my ah gong & ah ma...in heaven where everyting is care free...
wish i have the courage to stand in front of the car and let them bang me to death..or i lost all my memories??....i really wan to lose all my memories and restart my life again. my life sux really bad..i really wan to restart everytings with new memories...all my sad and painful past and memories all completely erase from my mind and brain...restart with fresh memories...mb one day i shd pluck up my courage and stand in front of a road and let them bang me...losing my memories...how i wish...

i wish i wish.....
-to lose all sad, painful and hurt past and memories....
- i didnt noe him...so he will not be sad....
- i have a new life
- i have more frens
- to open up myself


all these are juz stupid wishes....

I HATE MYSELF FOR CAUSING SO MUCH MISERY, UNHAPPINESS AND HURT TO PPL AROUND ME...IM HATE IT..IM SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!